★ You build me up but just to watch me break…

I don’t know what your intentions are and I don’t know what you’re ultimately feeling. Part of me wants to not care. A part of me is actually pretty pissed. Then there’s this little part of you that lingers in my thoughts and in my head that keeps me constantly wondering and caring about you…

And it kills me.

★ 2005

My year in list form.

Top songs (according to me)

  1. Kill – Jimmy Eat World
  2. The Real Thing – Gwen Stefani
  3. There’s a Fine, Fine Line – Cast of Avenue Q
  4. Let Fate Decide – Rufio
  5. A Lack of Color – Death Cab for Cutie
  6. Stare At The Sun – Thrice
  7. God and Mars – Days Away

Top songs (according to iTunes)

  1. U Don’t Have to Call – Usher
  2. It’s Like That – Mariah Carey
  3. How We Do – The Game
  4. Holla Back Girl – Gwen Stefani
  5. Stay The Night – Mariah Carey

Top places I went to

  1. Chicago – March
  2. Bay Area – September
  3. New York – July
  4. Philippines – December
  5. Las Vegas – December

Top Pictures

  1. Classic

  2. Proud Owner

  3. IMG_1425

  4. Roommates

  5. Family

Top Pictures (according to Flickr)

  1. Desktop 10-05-05

  2. House of Blues, San Diego

  3. Desktop 11-02-05

  4. UCI, 1998-2003

  5. Nemo

Top Moments

  1. Self realization, in the most general sense
  2. Moving from Lori Ann to Mango
  3. Buying my first car, a 2006 MINI Cooper S
  4. Hurrying home from work during the summer to put in at least 30 minutes of skimboarding
  5. Moving on

Looking forward to 2006

  1. Continued self improvement
  2. Save money
  3. Fixing the bridges I’ve burned
  4. Making 2006 even better than 2005
  5. There is no #5.

I always wanted to make a list like this and the New Year gives me an excuse to do it. It was hard sticking only to 5, especially for the songs. The explanation behind the top 5 iTunes songs is that those songs got played a lot whenever we went out on the weekends; because it does look strange when you compare it to the ones I chose. The pictures were hard to choose from as well. With the end of 2005, I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and now I can start off the new year with a clean slate. Here’s to 2006.